I hadn’t connected with anyone in the dance, despite being asked or invited too, I felt too self conscious and wanted to just be with myself thankyou. Then, a loneliness, others were paired, I want closeness too, but who would want to partner me, this mixed contradiction of emotions and I’m all sweaty and can I trust you .. will you get me, mirror me… I know you had been there for a while and I think I trust you enough…so I turn toward you. In my in my mind I say I am open to you, I would like to connect with you.. some how…but I’m not going make it too obvious or sudden, I don’t want to scare you off.. then I have an image , we are two wild cats in the jungle, in a sulight clearing, in the sensuous grass I am rolling… toward you, I roll again , and again , and again, each one bringing me closer, I think you have sensed me too. I stretch my arm, my paw, out and it touches your shape.. your foot maybe I don’t know, my eyes are closed. But I feel you and we have connected and you are moving toward me … and so our dance begins. It’s a courtship of sorts.. there is risk, intrigue, danger, desire, its all happening in about three seconds, but to me its reminisient of all great love stories, the choreography of a coming together. Its sweet, its beautiful, its tender its everything I want and need, its complete. It lasts about three minutes, its eternal.. it is with me now, it is my home base, being touched emotionally. I cant do it all on my own, I don’t have to
