Sacha Paddy writes:
Dear friends…happy Spring! The kowhai are blazing golden across gardens and forest, fruit trees are in delicate blossom and all seems to have taken on a delicious sweetness here on Waiheke. However the wind and intermittent heavy rains are reminding that the transition towards new growth is not always comfortable.
RESISTANCE TO CHANGE
Just like in our dance or any practice, we often have to brave those distinctly uncomfortable moments of boredom, of feeling we are stuck, or of feeling annoyed with the practice, music or teacher. I’ve had this many times in my dance and recently had it in my yoga practice when I just couldn’t get beyond the boredom of doing the same thing yet again, and then I became angry with the teacher for this or that. At some point I realised what was happening – RESISTANCE TO CHANGE, I was not allowing myself to move to another deeper layer, was holding onto what I knew – no wonder I was getting bored.
When I saw this and was able to let those uncomfortable feelings just be there, welcome them even, OK yes I’m bored again or annoyed again, the whole thing began to shift. Within a couple of weeks I felt I was discovering fresh connections again in the practice and it feels very alive to me again now.
This does seem to be a natural cycle that occurs as we are about to make a deepening in our lives or practices we feel suddenly very stuck and want to turn away all together. Of course this is just the moment to stay with it, like accepting the winds of Spring that will bring the Summer in due course.